HE said she Said, I said you SAID

At the start of the convo

I said

"i got a new crush, Yeah im pretty sure u know her"

you said

":O (OH)"

At the end of the convo

I said

"that girl was you"

you said

"I know"

Of course you did. I knew that you knew, yet I still had to say it. It gives me the a satisfaction, much like Hercules completing his seven tasks. Thus I am proud to announce I'm not a pussy =D. Thats something to be proud of. The only thing that bugs is me is that you probably knew that I thought you were somthing else before I knew. Maybe you even know me better than I know myself, lol wat a disgrace. I would be lying if I said I didnt speculate what future there could be but I know that we dont see eachother the same way, I could be wrong but im almost never wrong. As capable and strong as you say, you havnt fully conviced me, thus I dont want to be a burden on your shoulders. I dont want to rock a stable boat. I guess im just glad that my heart isnt leaking tears.

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You deserve to know the truth. And the story was my frend said I was going through a lot of trouble :"how sweet". I even foolishly replied to him "haha sif man, its not like that". But now i realised..it was like that. I woke that next morning 9 or so hours later with you in my head and my brain this time doodled on my head...."you know what waking up thinking about a girl...means?? It means your a flipping idiot and you know im right. I'm mr IQ 133 :P" damn you and your logic mr 133 IQ, I hate you.

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Just know that ill always be there, somewhere over the hills listening to the echoing of your voice in the valleys because as long as your happy thats all that matters. As long as you smile thats all that matters.

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Hahah how this makes my last blog seem so awkward that you know it was about you =.=. But thats why I blog at 1 am or later. Im delirious and im not afraid to write my mind.

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Amen. yours sincerely, no just yours.

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And this time I can say that I care about you boundlessly to your face not through a void.

and yes im an idiot.

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O and one more thing, you asked how long i inted to like this girl for? A long time, mayb years and im not ashamed.