HE said she Said, I said you SAID

At the start of the convo

I said

"i got a new crush, Yeah im pretty sure u know her"

you said

":O (OH)"

At the end of the convo

I said

"that girl was you"

you said

"I know"

Of course you did. I knew that you knew, yet I still had to say it. It gives me the a satisfaction, much like Hercules completing his seven tasks. Thus I am proud to announce I'm not a pussy =D. Thats something to be proud of. The only thing that bugs is me is that you probably knew that I thought you were somthing else before I knew. Maybe you even know me better than I know myself, lol wat a disgrace. I would be lying if I said I didnt speculate what future there could be but I know that we dont see eachother the same way, I could be wrong but im almost never wrong. As capable and strong as you say, you havnt fully conviced me, thus I dont want to be a burden on your shoulders. I dont want to rock a stable boat. I guess im just glad that my heart isnt leaking tears.

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You deserve to know the truth. And the story was my frend said I was going through a lot of trouble :"how sweet". I even foolishly replied to him "haha sif man, its not like that". But now i realised..it was like that. I woke that next morning 9 or so hours later with you in my head and my brain this time doodled on my head...."you know what waking up thinking about a girl...means?? It means your a flipping idiot and you know im right. I'm mr IQ 133 :P" damn you and your logic mr 133 IQ, I hate you.

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Just know that ill always be there, somewhere over the hills listening to the echoing of your voice in the valleys because as long as your happy thats all that matters. As long as you smile thats all that matters.

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Hahah how this makes my last blog seem so awkward that you know it was about you =.=. But thats why I blog at 1 am or later. Im delirious and im not afraid to write my mind.

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Amen. yours sincerely, no just yours.

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And this time I can say that I care about you boundlessly to your face not through a void.

and yes im an idiot.

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O and one more thing, you asked how long i inted to like this girl for? A long time, mayb years and im not ashamed.

133 IQ, highly gifted?? u got it all wrong.

this is a quite metaphorical piece. all my pieces are from the heart. done in ten...now 30.... minutes 2 am to 2 30 am. biomedicine students reading this will be more aware and appreciate the writing. ENJOY!

Think girl think. You say im stupid, i say im lost. You say Im amazing, I say Im yours.

............and so facebook reckons my IQ is 133 or highly gifted. (almost near genius). *chuckles. WELLL SORRRY mr FACEBOOK iq APP. IF I was highly gifted I wouldnt be here writing this blog.....


F.Y.I.
racemic* - a type of chemical mixture with two types of almost identical substances (chem)
resolved* - seperation of these two chemicals, light is rotated when it passes through resolved substances.
mouse* - used in biology lab dissection (biology)
boundless* - approach infinity (maths)
F.Y.I = My mind wanders in your direction all to often in uni


My neurones relay my impulses between complex pathways, unable to differentiate my next thought. I am lost, like a helpless mouse in a maze finding its way out....or in, whilst stressing about your constant gaze. I'm a perfectionist, although I wish I were instead a ventriliquist and speak my words through a void we could both relate to. A void in which my racemic mixture of emotions could be resolved and turn light in the right direction to distinguish my thoughts, although my void is fiction this is fact. Lately I care about you boundlessly, too much in fact and when I realised my mind expanded against my forehead doodling "you flippin idiot" on the inside of my skull. An epiphany I thought I would have long learned. Im searching for a part of myself i misplaced and I found it in you, but I think im going to lose the shifty bast*rd again.

"Faliure is when you dont learn from your mistakes"

*laughs to himself.

Well mister 133 IQ, this faliure better be worth it because if its not than you dont deserve to be my brain.....or heart. At least my heart knows how to leak tears from its cracks, that way *noone can see.....

that way I dont have to see myself......genius

and how I long to hear that voice....ridiculous

yet how much i want to be with you....relentless

How long for??...endless

all the while you are......oblivious

And just for laughs....penis.

nono lets be...serious

Andrew - yours sincerely.

No.... just yours

(just yours....get the pun? dont be so dumb do u need me to tell u straight to the face??? well miss im to cool for skool, turns out im prolly to pussy to tell you ;P. so youll have to figure it out yourself)

Amen

"Desperado"

WAOH! Its been almost 6 months since my last blog. :), EXAMS ARE SOON =(((. how time flies when your NOT having fun. Anyways so i picked up guitar and I can cross it off my to do list. among my list of what i think completes me lol..... and a qoute by awesome rocker chick Sarah springs to mind 'coz guys complete girls' or vise versa. Anywho to the point....

You may have heard of the song desperado by the eagles. Its a pretty epic song especially acoustic version with awesome harmonics =D. The lyrics that struck me was

'you better let somebody love you before its too late'.

im letting you love me, and i hope its not too late. ILY xx.

Hahaaha, u know if its u ;).